Having been Dreaming

Hello there, Mr. IT Lab.
So long I've called you.
There's this dream I've had,
It's about me and you.

You play the prince,
I play the princess.
You loved me ever since;
For truth, I really wishes.

We walked on the hallway,
Talked and laughed out loud.
And when the day faded away,
We danced and sang so proud.

It was all a fairytale,
Almost a dream come true.
But rainbows turned pale,
When you left me black and blue.

You kissed on my forehead,
As you walked on by.
There's too much tears I've shed,
When you waved me goodbye.

Well, Mr. IT Lab,
Guess we're really not meant.
In dreams it's you I've had,
But you left, to hold, I can't.

Bet it's better to just see you.
Cause fairytales are hopeless dreams,
They're too good to be true.
Maybe, it's all that it seems.

12/05/13

Tearing Down Walls

I'm sorry God, if I feel this way.
I just need a hand to hold,
I hope Yours won't slip away.
I just want to cry tears of thousand folds.

Excuse me God for having these tears.
This heavy heart needs a break.
I know it's hard to face my fears,
But it's my strength that's at stake.

Forgive me God for this wounded heart.
My wounds may heal slowly;
For the pieces that were torn apart,
I'll gather them back together, you'll see.

I'm sorry God, I made you feel sad.
The world is being harsh day by day.
But then a hand won't wake me feel bad.
I will be fine again, someday.

12/06/13

Song from a Beloved

I was sitting on a bench
Right under an old tree.
The sun rose so up high
That it shone straight to me.

A woman called my name
And I'm glad to hear her voice.
She wants us to play a game
Like it was our favorite past -time choice.

We ran around the tree
Laughing and singing all around.
It was a lovely day for me.
Then we laid down on the ground.

She told me stories I've loved.
Then tickled me like a baby.
She gave me all the love she'd have.
And that made me really happy.

She sang to me a song...
"I'll always be here for you
I won't be gone too long
Cause I'll always love you."

I fell asleep to her lullaby.
It was such a good song.
I know she won't say goodbye
For she said she won't be gone too long.

But then for a moment,
I woke up counting to ten.
It was only a dream well spent.
And I can never hear her song again.

11/02/13

Of What's Best

Why cry lots of tears
When you can laugh out loud.
Why not keep all your tears
Or bury them on the ground.

Why wear that frown
When you can even smile.
Don't let them bring you down
Be strong even for a while.

Why hate your enemies
When you can even love.
Don't you want peace and happiness?
And be contented of what you have?

Why let God help you solve
The problems you are involved?
You're not alone in life The Almighty handled,
Even if the light fade away in your candle.

Life offers so many choices.
It's everywhere in everything you do.
Don't just settle for a daily basis,
Choose what's best for you.


10/29/13 [11/26/13]

Out of the Blue

I woke up in the midst of my sleep.
In my dreams, I fell off the cliff.
It's so hard not to stay calm.
Then an angel caught me on his palm.
He looked right through me and gave a smile.
Then he flew me out across the mile.
He said, "Be calm for God won't give you
A problem so deep you can't get through."

11/26/13

My Russian Boy

He's sweet even before what I've seen.
I always feel like fed up by a candy machine.
He makes me fly with his words.
Yet, I know we're in different worlds.
His jokes make me laugh at all.
So funny that I could even crawl.
His seriousness is not that catchy.
Cause I don't know when he is to me.
His stories are so good for bedtime.
Like clinging sounds of a wind-chime.
He tells me the pain of a broken man.
And that love is not just for fun.
He looks right just like an ordinary guy.
But his life is something someone would buy.
He is not like the men behind Ellen of Troy.
But he really wants to be a russian boy.


11/25/13

Love at First Sight

It was at that very moment
When I made my first glance.
In a place full of crowd,
I fell in love all at once.
Far beyond earth could see;
Though name is all I have;
I've known you already,
And know that this I feel is love.
I stared right through you.
Cause I'm too shy to say hi.
I don't have the looks like others do.
So I never had a chance to try.
But it's when you speak to me
That I got my tongue tied.
My heart isn't yet ready
I wanted to run and hide.
We've had our first goodbye. 

Will there be next time?
I hope I won't get too shy.
I'm finding a word to rhyme.
The moment gets near. 

This time I had you close.
I'm getting more in love, dear.
I'm getting overdosed.
But fate left me hanging. 

I can't make my heart beat.
I found out that you're leaving. Is it time for me to quit?
This may be our last goodbye.
You'll be gone miles away. 

There's no door for this love to die.
I'll see you soon someday.
Moments with you will always remain
Memories from the heart of daylight.
As I stand on this pedestrian lane
You will be my love at first sight.

11/21/13

Selective Memory

Did I ever have you?
Got face of blue.
Did I ever kiss you?
Or hug you, too?
Did I ever love you?
What else did I do?
Oh, please just tell me.
I have this selective memory.

11/09/13

A Fool who Waits

At every unexpected gust,
The dead leaves fall.
Every step in the faulty crust,
The old walls crumble.

Long have I been waiting,
For this love to come.
My patience is now drowning,
I may be fool for some.

The rocks stand still,
My body gets numb.
I don't know what to feel,
My heart gets dumb.

But who will be to blame
When I longed for love yet nothing came?
This heart is now weary
Waiting for a love so dearly.

I longed for no goodbyes.
Never would have longed for lies.
Love should never be this hard.
It should be patient, never would get tired.

11/12/13

The Song of a Broken Heart

It will be you and I,
Against all the people.
We'll never say good bye;
Love's too hard to handle. 

We promised that we'll stay,
Together, forever.
We'll mind not what they say.
It's us we're both after. 

I'm holding on too long-
Promise of forever-
Why did it go so wrong?
Thought we'll be together. 

Song's played with broken chords;
This unchained melody,
Lyrics of broken words...
How lonely love could be. 

Will it still be you and I,
Against all the people?
But we've already said good bye...
Oh, love's too hard to handle. 


10/29/13

Sa mga Natatangi naming Mag-aaral

Sa napakaraming "student-teachers" na nakakahalubilo niyo sa buong araw niyo sa klase, maaaring isa kami sa hindi niyo nagustuhan; maaaring isa kami sa hindi niyo nabibigyang pansin tuwing nagtuturo; maaaring isa kami sa kinaiinisan niyong "student-teachers;" maaaring isa kami sa mga ordinaryong tao na nakikita't nakakaharap niyo, ilang minuto tuwing lunes at martes, na sa tingin niyo ay wala kayong kapupulutan ng aral. Hindi man sapat ang napakaikling oras upang makilala ang bawat isa sa inyo, sapat na ang napakaikling oras na 'yon para mapamahal kami--bilang mga "studen-teachers"--sa inyo.

Sa unang araw ng pagpasok namin sa inyong klase, hindi mawari ng nangungusap naming isipan kung bakit ganoon na lang kayo kagulo. Marahil, dahil sa kayo'y napabilang sa pangalawa sa pinakahuling seksyon sa ikawalong baitang, ang mga ugali niyo'y hindi matawaran sa kakulitan at ang mga pag-iisip niyo'y kasimbagal umusad katulad ng pagong. Batid naming hindi kayo ganoon ka-interisadong matuto sa mga bagay-bagay sa mundo (ni iilan lang ang nais makinig sa'min sa t'wing kami'y nagtuturo). Batid din namin na sa murang edad at isipan niyo'y nais niyo lang ang magliwaliw--walang pakialam kung may guro sa harapan, o wala. Masakit isipin na sa mga nababatid naming ito, maaksaya lamang ang pagpunta niyo sa paaralan. Na masasayang lamang ang mga paghihirap ng inyong mga magulang sa pagtataguyod sa inyo sapagkat ni wala man lang silang makitang katiyagaan at kasipagan niyo sa pag-aaral. Iyon ay mga pagwawari sa loob lamang ng isang araw na pagkikita. At ang mga basihan? Napakarami. Iilan na lamang ang paglabas pasok sa loob ng klase, paghiyawan kahit pa may guro sa harapan, at paikot-ikot na paglakad sa apat na sulok ng silid-aralin na wari'y 'di mapakali sa kinalalagyan. Ito ma'y napakababaw na basihan na maging marahil ay ordinaryong kinagawian na ng mga mag-aaral, masasabi naming malaki ang naiaambag nito sa pagtuklas ng inyong mga buhay-buhay.

Ilang araw ang lumipas at ipinaranas niyo sa'min kung gaano kayo kagulo, kaingay, kakulit, at kung gaano katigas ang inyong mga ulo. Sa pagtanong-tanong sa mga guro, nalaman naming isa kayo sa pinakamahirap turuan na klase. Marami sa napagtanungan at nakausap namin ang halos naisin na'ng sumuko sa pagtuturo sa inyo. Sa pagtataka, nasaan na lamang ba ang dedikasyon ng mga gurong ito sa pagtuturo sa kanilang mga mag-aaral? Ngunit hindi lang din naman dapat isaayon ang pag-uumento sa iisang aspeto lamang. Sapagkat hindi sa lahat ng bagay ay dapat isisi sa mga guro...kung bakit usad pagong ang natututunan ng mga batang kagaya niyo. Kailangan niyo ng tulong--sa kahit na anong aspeto ng buhay. Ngunit paano kayo mabibigyang tulong kung kayo mismo'y di kayang tulungan ang inyong mga sarili?

Balikan natin ang mga araw kung saan isinuwalat niyo sa'min ang tunay niyong mga ugali. Sabihin natin na normal na sa inyo ang pagiging maingay. Subalit, normal din ba na kayo'y nagbabatuhan ng kung anu-ano sa loob ng klase? Normal din ba na nagbabatukan kayo sa harap ng guro? Normal na nagkakantahan at nagsasayawan kayo sa gitna ng inyong pag-aaral, kung kayo'y nag-aaral ngang talaga? Normal ba na naghahampas kayo ng kung anu-ano sa sahig habang may nagtuturo sa harapan? Normal din ba ang magsigawan kahit ang kausap mo'y halos kaharap mo lang? At normal din ba na nagsusugal kayo sa isang sulok ng silid-aralan na animo'y mga bihasa sa sugal kung umasta? Iilan lamang ito sa mga bagay kung bakit kayo kinaaayawan. Ngunit tingnan niyo kami--inyo mga guro at "student-teachers"--pilit kaming patuloy na pumapasok upang magturo sa inyo. Hindi dahil sa kailangan, iyon ay dahil sa nananalig kami na maging interisado kayo sa pagkatuto sa mga bagay na ituturo namin sa inyo. Dito ko napatunayan ang dedikasyon ng iilan sa mga gurong aming nakahalubilo. Nagnanais silang may marating kayo sa buhay, at maging kami ma'y nais kayong magtagumpay. Kung kaya't sa halip na iwan kayo sa ere ay pilit naming pinapasukan ang inyong klase. Iyon ay dahil sa napalapit na ang loob namin sa inyo...napamahal na kayo sa amin...at nagmamalasakit kami't nagtitiwala sa inyo sa kabila ng inyong mga kaligaligan.

Mga mag-aaral ng Batangas sa ikawalong baitang, darating ang araw na kami'y hindi niyo na makakahalubilo. Darating ang araw na mababawasan ang mga taong nagmamalasakit at nagtitiwala sa kakarampot niyong kakayanan. Nawa'y minsan sa dako ng isip niyo'y inyong maunawaan ang kahalagan ng edukasyon sa buhay. Nawa'y maisip niyo na kaming mga guro at "student-teachers" ay nagpapakahirap sa pag-intindi sa inyo para lang may matutunan kayo sa amin. At nawa man di'y maalala niyo kami bilang ate, kuya, kapatid, o kaibigan na nagmamahal sa inyo sa paglipas ng mga panahon.

Ito'y hindi pagsiwalat sa mga kagawiang 'di ayon sa mata ng nakararami. Ito'y isang anyo ng paglalantad kung gaano kadakila ang puso ng bawat guro sa kanilang mga mag-aaral. At sa mga mag-aaral ng Batangas sa ikawalong baitang, ang pagsisisi ma'y nasa huli, ngunit ang pagbabago'y laging walang pinipiling araw.

My Dear Friends

She is Jazmine.
She lacks vitamin.
She seldom smile.
She barely laugh for a while.
But many would not care,
Because of her long, black hair.
Still you would never know,
The loveliness she could hardly show.

A sheepish smile she can give,
In a wonderful world one can live.
Her name is Angelica.
Her voice is like Nightingale in Savannah.
Her chuckles are so sweet,
With blinking eyes she keeps.
Pinch her and she will cry...
With her words as, "Oh my!"

Liezel, the girl with eye glasses.
She stands tall as Jazmine wishes.
She loves Korean and everything.
She loves to dance and sing...
Loves food and fancy clothing.
She seemed like a fashionable being.
Just look on how she walks,
And hear her when she talks.

Here comes this shy girl,
With hair that twists and curls.
She is Joy Ann-
The geek woman.
She loves to read and study.
She's serious, sometimes happy.
She knows almost every little thing.
In a world where she is living.

Beauty, wit, and posture.
Though I'm not quite sure.
I'll just introduce her so-
Ms. Analyn Plantilla Geronimo!
She has breath taking confidence.
When you're with her, you'll feel tensed.
Cause she feels like a goddess.
That everyone will get impressed.

Of all these lovely girls of Venus,
Their love and beauty is continuous.
No matter how different they are,
There is an existence of no war.
In God's eyes, they are equal,
And no one dares to make a scandal.
Meet them and say what you see.
As their friend, teasing them makes me happy. ^-^

9.25.13

In Forgetting the Impossible

My heart is thumping.
I said I'll get over.
But I can't miss the feeling
Of loving you dear.

I saw you passing by
My world almost fell.
I thought I'm going to die
But I was all too well.

I can't get you off my mind.
I'm fighting over my feelings.
I can't just leave you behind.
I'm thinking many a thing.

Perfect combination,
I thought we were.
Guess it's just my imagination.
I can't really have you dear.

9.25.13

If You Want to Be Happy, Be

Look in the mirror
See your face
Smile fades in terror
You feel disgraced.

What's with that frown?
Do you need a clown?
Why not laugh as you can?
Be a happy man!

The world is tricky
It's fine to make mistakes
Just make yourself happy
Mind not what's at stake.

9.23.13

Tested and Proven

The pain may stand still
But all wounds, time can heal.
The sacrifices are all worth given.
Our friendship is tested and proven.

All the tears we have dropped,
Ran on our cheeks we haven't stopped.
All are really worth given.
Cause our friendship is tested and proven.

The hurtful words each one had showered,
That crashed each other's heart, powdered.
It will all be over now,
And we will all move on,  somehow.

All the obstacles we've been through,
We passed it all,  me and you.
Now,  let's give thanks to heaven,
For our friendship was tested,  and now proven.


5.4.2013

She is Growing Weary

I stopped writing poems for my dearest.
But still her love for me is the sweetest.
I found out that she is growing tired.
But her strength is what I have always admired.

She looks sad and weary all these days.
I am bothered, there is pressure over grace.
I found myself counting all the things we have done.
I realized I am counting them one by one.

Things have been so rough before.
My dearest and I struggled once and more.
But look to where we are today,
We have never regret to where we chose to stay.

Now I'm writing poem to my dearest.
I want to remind her of her love so sweetest.
I hope she will refrain from growing tired.
Cause I know there is this strength in her I have always admired. 

In the Middle of the Pouring Rain

Got heavy rains pouring. 
My hands are shaking.
Heart stopped beating.
I don't know where I'm going.

I'm lost for so many times.
Can't count the broken lines.
I don't know what's even mine.
And I guess I'm not totally fine.

The rain still pours heavily.
I'm walking with a heart that's weary.
The pain I feel's taking over me.
I'm cold, I'm numb, I could hardly see.

The sky is still dark.
The wind blew hard.
I can't walk forward.
I've forgotten all the good remarks.

Now I'm left in this world
With no one to hold.
The stories untold
Were left in the cold.

In the middle of this pouring rain,
I'll wash away the pain.
Just let me know where I'm going
So I'll never be lost again.


8.20.13

For the Gratitude Owed

I'm so thankful when God gave me you.
This family, for years, I've been with through.
What a blessing you are to me, if you only knew.
Nothing can replace everything you've done.
For someone like me who is relentlessly dunned.

I was a flight-risked with the fear of disappointments.
I never knew it was part of life's achievements.
You made me realize things and I thank you
Same as for being part of my life, too.

The longer I stayed in your arms,
The more I look up to you as paradigm.
I was able to enjoy my life to mere fullest.
I was able to pass lifelong tests.
You have nurtured me better than best.

For having a big heart that could mend everything,
This is what I'm always praying:
May God pour you ever countless blessings.
And for the gratitude I owed from the very beginning,
I thank you for everything.

What I Did

I just tore pieces of papers
Mispuzzled couples of puzzles
Lost lots of happy memoirs
And started difficult struggles.

I just drank plenty of poisons
Got all the promises broken
Left someone for no good reasons
While hanging words unspoken.

I just turned away from one
Who mispelled numerous words
I just left things undone
To play the broken chords.

I have dropped volumes me tears
For turning a relationship apart
Now I will cry for hundred years
Cause I broke someone's dear heart.

June2

Tick-Tack

Seconds have passed go just a wink.
You could miss a moment go a blink.
But life must still move on
For many days are still ungone.

Minutes were gone in just few naps.
You missed the race of two laps.
But it should be finnished no matter what
When you know you are giving your best shot.

Hours moved on from time spent.
Look how far the time had went.
A missed hour counts minutes and seconds
You can't easily count in both hands.

24hours summed up a day.
You are blessed to have one ,anyway.
So everyday you wake up,
Seize the day on top.

Have you already counted your blessings?
It has been a week of sleeping and waking.
How many moments have you misSed?
How many of those are temporary bliss?

The calendar's counting,it's almost a month.
Have you done all the things you want?
Or left it hanging for tomorrow?
Never  regret or you will be in sorrow.

Seconds, minutes, and hours are done.
Days, weeks, and months are gone.
Life needs to move on.
Just do not forget to pray
That God will add a day
To make a year that is one.

June28

A Poem for You

Of all the things i've done to you,
Of all the pains that made you feel black and blue,
Of all the struggles we've been through,
I'm so thankful i still have you.

Our friendship started from simple thing,
Until it grows into something.
We can't trade it to anything
Because it's now our everything.

Funny how the ups and downs,
All the smiles and all the frowns,
Along with our friendship crown,
Drove us crazy in this town.

I can't believe we could be
Friends forever, can't you see?
Now why can't you just look at me?
My eyes are telling you i'm very happy.

I've walked a hundred rocky roads.
I've carrried thousand heavy loads.
I've traveled many places abroad.
I never stopped finding a friend til you showed.

Dear,  now this i say to you,
After all the things we both gone through,
You stayed with me so pure,  so true,
And that is why i made this poem for you.

May8

My Sun and Moon

Dearest, you are my sunshine.
Your light wakes me up every time.
As your rays touch my face every morning,
I have already received my early blessing.

When your heat strikes me at noon,
And flowers are at their full bloom,
You make me sweat more and more.
That's how hot your love can grow.

At evening,  you set in the velvet sky.
Heavens forgot to pour their heavenly cry.
Because you first poured your shiny rays
That cast away the cloudy grays.

Dearest, now that you are my luna,
Your beauty becomes infinite, like Diana.
You light my world even in the evening, my dearest.
And it's the only thing that's sweetest!

April21

Run Away

Please take my hand
And let's run away.
Take me to neverland.
There, we'll stay.

I'm leaving my world.
I wanna be with you.
I want your hands to hold
This weary heart that's blue.

Hesitate not, my love.
Let's runaway now.
You're all that I have.
Please, listen to my vow.

I'll forever be yours.
In your hands I'll stay
For life's different course.
Can we now run away?

June7

Mama

It's been ten years mom,
Since you've been gone.
We miss you so much,
Me and your sons.

How are you there?
Do you feel lonely, too?
Is there someone so dear,
Who can take away your blues?

Mama,  I miss your care.
I miss every little thing we share.
I miss your sweet embrace.
I miss your calm and loving face.

Mama, the years were gone.
But the pain won't go.
Your days were undone,
But why did you leave so?

Mama, why did you have to go?
Why did God had to take you away from us?
Mama, I can't easily grow
From the pain of death as what it was.

Mama, I cry almost every night.
For I can't keep the pain inside.
My tears are tired to hide.
I can't bury the pain alive.

Mama, why does it hurt so bad?
At times I even get mad.
Do I just feel lonely and sad?
Or because I can't really feel glad?

But Mama, I'm still longing for you.
For your love and care that's so true.
Mama, when will I see you?
And when will I be with you, too?

Somewhere in Between

My eyes are about to close.
I got a heavy medicine dose.
I am about to sleep by then,
But I knew not when.

Will I fly when I dream?
Will I float on distant stream?
Will I be in paradise?
Or will I be with Jesus Christ?

Oh! I am not yet asleep.
I have thoughts in mind to keep.
But my eyes are about to close.
I can now see a bed full of rose.

A Day

The sun rose from east.
I say its first rays.
It trampled all the beasts.
Clearing the forest grays.

The clouds in the morning sky
Sway in the beat of light.
The birds that fly so high
Had lost their very fright.

At noon it strikes its heat
The trees gave their shade.
As wind hurled in every beat
It paved the heat to fade.

Now the run sets to west.
I can see its last rays.
We had the day at best.
Here comes the velvet grays.

June3

Common Pleasure

My friend and I
HaVe common PleasuRe.
Though at tiMes we differ
Our friendship cannot be measured.

We love to laugh.
We love to eat.
When tiMes get rough
It's not hard to bReath.

We love each other
That we are so fine.
We get back together
When we aRe out of line.

I love Mickey.
She likes Melody.
I can sing to her
But she can't sing to me.

We often talk
About life and love.
But We uSe to walk
With clear clouds above.

We both love music.
She rocks, I rules.
But we don't like disco Panic.
It makes us fools.

I love to make a trip.
She loves to give a tReat.
At times she get mad.
But to her I will never quit.

We both eat chocolates.
But I am mUch sweeter.
She usually frown then.
So I always call her "bitter."

I am an opTimist.
She is a Pessimist.
We are of different poles.
So we easily got cloSe.

We prefer colors of Red and black.
Songs like country and alternative rock.
She wanted to have a violin.
I'm fine with guitar-strumming.

She likes tall, dark, and handsome.
I'm more to a gentleman.
It doesn't matter anyway,
When we got married someday.

I'd like to have a double wedding,
Two of us with our daRlings.
She makes fun of it, though.
But we're still on a long way to go.

We aRe getting stronger.
We sPend each each day to last forever.
As long as we are both togetHer,
We will alWays have common pleasures.

July21

Of Before

We are coming back from the start,
To where there are no broken hearts,
To where we are no worlds apart,
And moments are sweet like tarts.
May2

Tangle

Here's the string,
Make a knot.
This flower i bring,
Called forget-me-not;
Attach these all,
Nevet let it fall.
Make sure all these,
So I'll be at peace. :)

May4

A Life

A life been given
That's made from heaven
Is surely a blessing
That joy it brings
To every living.

Life makes us see
What we could be
With blessings from Thee
Countless and free
For you and for me.

Life lets us feel
Happiness for real
Just stand and be still
And let God's will
Take its toll for a deal.

Life gives experiences
In different places
Of different faces
At different cases
Seconds to seconds.

Life's a tough teacher
Like no any other
The lessons it offers
Makes us stronger
And even braver.

JUNE16

Papa

Papa, what's wrong with you?
You've had a family that's two.
Don't you know what you've done to me?
What pain you've caused in my family!

Why need to have another?
Is the one not good enough?
Then what have become of the other?
You've left us when time's so rough.

You know what father,
I thought you were true.
I've never thought any further.
Unminding you would leave us black and blue.

Papa, where's your respect?
You've ruined all plans that was made to be perfect.
You're so selfish, Papa.
Now there's no time to make your errors correct.

I should have cursed you before.
But dear God would have cursed me for sure.
But how can I ever honor you, father?
When because of your deeds, I have this anger?

Look what evil made you do.
You broke our hearts, cold and blue.
Where's your conscience now?
Guess you were not sincere when you've said your vow.

I have so many questions.
Part of my life was missing.
I don't know if I can believe your reasons.
Cause my trust in you grows dying.

Papa, you've left so many stories untold.
Where will I find completeness in this world?
Who will ever let the story to unfold?

How will it ease away the feelings that have grown cold?
I wonder if you ever knew,
This anger I have towards you. Papa, I never meant to bear this.
But my life has always been at risk.

Aug. 31

To a Friend

I'm not a good friend who's always there.
Not even expressive to show I care.
I may always ignore you for no reason,
My moods may swing to unexpected season,
I may care less to words I speak to you,
I may even make you feel black and blue,
I may leave you hanging on the line,
I may let you worry of things sometime,
I may break your heart to pieces,
I may never grant all your wishes,
I may let you down all the time;
Now I can't find a word to rhyme;
I may not be your angel my friend,
But I'll always keep you in my heart until the end.

A Man With No Word

I'm very, very sorry dear
I did no good to you.
I gave you sorrow and fear
That you can't get through.

I'm sorry, I have to choose.
I'm sorry, it's you I have to lose.
I'm sorry for my selfish decisions.
I'm sorry for the invalid reasons.

I made a choice yet stood not firm.
I made a promise but broke it in return.
What's left of you is a broken piece
Of your heart that's bleeding you've never wished.

Will heartbreaks be over soon?
Will we be okay and move on?
We've made it far but I brought you down.
I'm sorry for receiving the heartache's crown.

The Road of A Loner

I'm walking on a lonely road
With the moon that shines above me.
In mind I have heavy loads
But in heart I know I'm free.

As I passed with my shadow,
I can see dark clouds above.
Yet the sun will rise tomorrow
And will lighten the loads I have.

Dark clouds, there are.
The stars try to shine through.
I have walked alone this far,
For stars guided me as they always do.

Passing cars and lamp posts,
Going here and there.
I'm like walking from a holocaust,
Nobody dares to care.

Is this how hard to walk alone?
My self pretends I'm okay.
I'm walking on a lonely road way back home.
This has to be another day.

My body feels so heavy.
My heart beats slower.
Is this because of the load I carry?
Or it's just that I walk as a loner?

The stars and the moon shines brighter.
The sky is turning clear.
Will I walk in this lonely road forever?
How I wish I have someone so dear.

Better Off

It's better off that we are friends.
No heartbreak, no ends.
There's no off, split, and break.
No broken heart at stake.

It's better off this way.
No debts of love to pay.
We give, we take away.
We lead our roles to play.

In friendship we share
Our love and our care.
We are lovers at friendship state.
And I guess it's better than great.

May21

Don't You

Do you ever feel
How great you are to me?
You are the one that is real
Can't you even see?

Do not ever say
You are not of worth.
For come what may
You are a puzzle piece on earth.

Don't you ever admit
You have less than what is needed.
You do not need every bit
Of life's roses in bed.

Don't you put your self down.
You are breaking pieces of you.
God will be at frown.
Him and I will feel blue.

You don't need others' words.
Do what you have to do.
I am just hero, a friend to hold.
You trust me, don't you?

July13

Though Without

I may not be theRe
To be wheRe you are.
Distance may be wheRe
On Part that is so far.
Know that I still care
And will always be heRe.

SiLence I may give
And nothing but coldness.
But love you can receive
From a heart that is Selfless.
Take it as you liVe
This life of challenges.

So I may not be theRe.
None of my pResence.
But I will always care
On behalf of my absence.
This may sound unfair
But are truthful go senSe.

July18

So Be It?

"To judge is to form an opinion about through careful weighing of evidence and testing of premises. To criticize is to consider the merits and demerits of and judge accordingly." --Mirriam Webster's Dictionary

When you judge a pageant, a fashion show, or even a simple competition, criteria is always present. 25% for creativity, 25% for originality, 25% performance, and 25% audience impact. It takes a hard time to give points. It takes a hard time to decide who the winner will be. But along the process, the best performer wins.

In grading students at school, a grading system is also present. Rubrics are set to give fair assessments. A certain percentage is given to attendance, recitation, project, and examination. Teachers may consider students to receive a passing grade on behalf of their poor performance. But they do have action plans to know the reason behind the students' poor performances. With the help of the grading system, the teacher knows who tops the class. At sometime at least, teachers can never be biased.

In terms of judging an accused person, there is a judge and lawyers to charge the accused either guilty or acquitted. The systematic process of trial allows the accused to lay words defending his side. The process even take a long period of time.

But why is it that easy to judge a person the way he walks, talks, and acts? Why criticize a person from head to foot when you do not even know his personality, attitude, and real identity. Why give comments as if you were perfect to see his flaws? You give impressions that generalize the whole of a person. You see him this way and so he will always be this way. You can identify and count his mistakes and never recognize the good deeds he had done. With the errors you have seen, you look at him like he is the most notorious suspect in the whole world. You see him as the most dumbest student ever. You never listen to him because he knows nothing. You never asks him for pieces of advice cause he knows nothing. You never believes in every word he say. Do you know that these lowers one's self esteem? He wants to give clarification of his side for fair judgment but no one wants to listen. It is because they were already blinded by their misjudgement. They believe no other except themselves...

Is it right to infer judgment this way? So how can we ever achieve fair judgments? Can't we listen to the cry of the person involved? Can't we weigh things on both sides? Can't we try to ask what happened, how did it happen, and why did it happen? Can't we look at both sides in order to judge, criticize, and give comments fairly? Why keeping a border in your mind when you know you can exceed it? Why stopping from thinking when you can think things beyond your cognition? Why closing your mind from what reality presents? Why criticizing all of a sudden? Or judging without hearing both sides? Does it feed the hunger of a vengeful mind? Does it satisfy the crave of a deceitful heart? Or does it fill the thirst of an envious soul?

If competitions have criteria, grading students have rubrics, and on-court trials have lawful judgment, then why judging an individual can never be fair? We have mind to think. We have heart to feel. I guess it's time to make this possible-- to use both mind and heart to make everything fair without being bias.

Body Clock

My body clock is ticking,
Its past six in the morning.
I haven't slept much last evening,
Cause it's you i have been thinking.

Now the cLock turns to seven,
But my head is locked up in heaven.
I don't want bad things to happen.
I need good vibes not to be dampened.

When the clock's hand move to eight,
I'll try to stand and ve awake.
For today is a wonderful day,
And bad vibes must be driven away.

April25

Once Upon in Fairy Land

Once upon in fairyland,
A prince asked for a princess' hand.
His love is countless like the sand.
And his love can go beyond the distant land.

The princess accepted the prince
For she love him ever since.
She gave him her purest love
That the prince could ever have.

Their first days are too good to be true.
They can do whatever they want to.
They've said too much than "I love you. "
Until something happened out of the blue.

The walls they built had crumbled down.
Their struggles are all against the town.
They cried for freedom no one can hear.
They fought for love without a single fear.

Their first battle paved for glory.
And so they started again to be happy.
The world had shut its lips
As it witnessed the love of two in its fingertips.

Another days have passed in just few blinks.
Sleeps are just like forty winks.
Their love that 's so pure, so true
Helped them to get even through.

One day, it came out unexpectedly.
They never noticed the pain love caused so badly.
Then, each day they started to grow apart.
Not minding how to mend each one's broken heart.

The prince tried to take control.
He never want love to take its toll.
But days are getting worst for him.
Until he doesn't even know what's happening.

The princess hid all her pains.
She doesn't want love to take her in vain.
She knew that all these things are meant.
And she said her heart was not broken, only bent.

The trust was broken.
The angels cried in heaven.
The trials were already given,
though no juries were left to listen.

Their love for each other's at stake.
Wonder how far the step each one can make.
Love had caused so much misery,
To these two young people so easily.

The day came for a wise decision:
End the love to have no liason.
The decision was given without reason.
And the prince abides showing no emotion.

The princess and the prince tried to get over
With the love they've had for one another.
Their love that's so pure, so true must be over.
Cause they're not meant for each other.

They now live in their separate worlds.
But there are stories still left untold.
Cause once upon a time in a fairyland,
A prince asked for a princess' hand.

May9

May Forever be Granted

Good day my dearest better friend!
I would like our friendship to last until the end.
Do you like the same way, my dearest?
Please, i want to feel your love that's sweetest.

I want to hear your voice all the time.
Cause words from you always fit and rhyme.
It sounds as good as the poems i've made,
Accompanied by music till it fade.

Every burst of laughter we drop,
Comes from our cheerful hearts that pop.
The craziness of the moment won't stop
Til we both filled this empty cup.

I want to feel your sweet embrace.
Of how you give me warm-loving grace.
And in a little in-between space,
Are our hearts put together in place.

I always want to feel your tender love and care.
These are the things i don't want to share
With people who are but fancy ones,
Who pass by and only take a short glance.

There's no more our friendship can offer,
Than a peaceful heart and mind of two friends and lovers.
There's this friendship we built together,
That i would love to last forever.

April22

Sing me to Sleep

Sing me your lullaby.
Sing me to sleep.
Promise I'll never cry
Never will I weep.

Close now my eyes
Hear how I breathe.
Tomorrow's sunrise
Will keep me at peace.

Turn off the light.
Turn off the sound.
The moon is bright,
So as the stars around.

Hold my cold hands
Till I fell asleep.
We'll dream to distant lands,
This promise I'll keep.

Feel the cold breeze
In the midsummer night.
Lay my soul at peace,
As the moon shines so bright.

Tonight I'll dream
Sweet, safe and sound.
Tonight I'll swim
Beneath the ground.

Sing me your lullaby
So I can sleep.
I'll rest my soul on high.
But never weep.

June10

Forward

I'm done with the butterflies.
I'm now on the free fall.
I've dried my teary eyes.
You'll be gone at all.

Next time I'll be wise.
When love takes its toll.
I will learn to move on.
I can even forget you.

Our love is already done.
I'll get with you through.
Yes, you will be gone.
And your memories, too.

June18

Tales of Reality

The clock's ticking
The days are counting
Im almost leaving
In imperfect timing.

Soon, fairytales will be over
Ill live in reality again, after
I wish tales would end, never
So that happy endings could exist forever.
April6

And When

When world has nothing to offer,
But problems that cause one to suffer,
I'll come to you and give you a hand,
To lift you up so you can stand.

When these problems give so much misery,
hold so tight and stay with me.
soon, you'll get this through.
I'll put my trust and faith on you.

When all you've got are heavy loads,
I'll lead your way to easy roads.
And when you start to lose your hope,
Never try to cut your tied rope.

Child, life may bring heavy burden.
There's this place, a peaceful garden.
With your good heart, you'll see this in heaven.
Seek with your faith, witness His miracle if you can.
5.25

If Only

If my heart were only two,
One for him and one for you,
I wouldn't have to choose,
I would have nothing to lose.
May25

Too Much for a Love Not Meant

There's too much tears we've shed
For fighting the love we've had.
Though we stopped and ceased instead,
The tears still flow for things misread.
There's too much words unspoken,
When hearts were left there broken.
Now we can't play on broken strings.
Now we can't soar with broken wings.
There's too much smiles turned upside-down,
And were placed by all the infinite frown.
Forlorn is now all over the town.
Door to door, he'll turn around.
There's too much heart filled with anger.
There's too much anger turned to grudge.
Now all were hurt, when it'll be over?
Who will stand and be the judge?
So there's too much for a love not meant.
There's too much for a love wrongly sent.
There's too much for you and for me.
This love's too much to be meant to be.
May24

The Memory of a Dead

You're riding on a bus
Gone way home.
You're sitting on d window side
While staring at your phone.
You're on a long way trip
With yourself all alone
Rain drops tip to tip
As strong winds have grown.
You have traveled many miles
Passed lamp posts after another
A memory you remember every while
Is a memory of your loving grandfather.
Then there's cold wind around you
With the heavy rain that hits you, too
You felt the loneliness inside
But the warm memories kept you alive.
Too many cars have passed by
Too many people have walked on the lane
You stay sitting on the window side
Trying to forget all the pain.
June17

Today and Tomorrow

Today we live
Tomorrow we will die
But as soon as we're alive
We should never cry.
Today the sun rise
But will set later
The moon will shine next
Then will fade after.
Today the flowers bloom
Later it will wither
Then a new seed will sprout
And will soon be a flower.
Today the pen writes
But soon its tint will be gone
The story will be unwritten
Though it has not yet began.
Today the bulb has light
Then be over the day after
There may be replacements
Replacements after another.
Today we have money
Tomorrow it'll all be spent
Till we woke up asking
Where it all went.
Today we have clothes
Tomorrow we'll be naked
Torn out to pieces
And colors were faded.
Today the oceans have water
Tomorrow it'll be dried up
The fishes will be thirsty
Cause there's no water drop.
Today the fields are green
We can walk here and there
But the autumn will come
Leaves will fall everywhere.
Today the eagles can soar
But when they get older
Their wings will get tired
Till they can fly never.
Today there is life
Tomorrow there is death
But no matter what happen
We can never know what lies ahead.
June17

Love Countdown

One, two, three, four
You were all that I adore.
Five, six, seven, eight
Love me now and never hate.
Eight, seven, six, five
Your love keeps me alive.
Four, three, two, one
I'm gonna miss you when you're gone.
June18

A Cry amidst the Din

A Cry amidst the Din

The fact that you have given way too much of your time for all their needs yet even lending an ear for listening is what they could hardly give.

                Dear students, have you ever known the feeling of speaking in front of more than fifty students? Why not put yourselves on the shoes of the speaker.  Isn’t it hard to utter a word when the crowd is noisy?  Isn’t it hard to start your talk when everybody’s busy doing their own things? Aren’t you dismayed to continue speaking when someone raises a nonsense point? Isn’t it too tiring to repeat all what you have spoken because of their repeating questions for they have not listened? Isn’t it hard to cater their suggestions, clarifications, questions, and comments when they are not raising their hands, but instead, mumble those on their seats, or even do so when you talk was already done? Won’t you wanted to shout at them? Won’t you wanted to give them hurtful words? Won’t you wanted to scream at the top of your voice that they are all dunce for they don’t know how to follow a simple instruction—to just listen?  Won’t you wanted to walk out of the room because of their deeds you can classify not?  Won’t you wanted to throw to them all things you have in your hands? Won’t you wanted to cry out loud because of their unfavorable behaviors?   

Students, is it that really hard to listen?  Tell me, how hard is it to listen to the speaker in a seminar?  Tell me, how hard is it to listen to a preacher when he preaches? How hard is it to listen to a teacher when he/she teaches?  How hard is it to listen to a reporter when he/she reports? How hard is it to listen to a leader when he/she stands in front of you to speak? Then why is it hard for us to listen to music? To jokes?To nonsense things? Is it hard to notice how hard it is to speak in front of a crowd with no one who tries to listen? Are we that blind, deaf, and numb enough not to see, hear, and feel all these miserable things? Where are the values we have gained from our parents? Where are the values taught to us by our dear teachers? Where are all the values we have all had from our life experiences? Are they all gone? Have we not gained it, and enriched? Have we forgotten it already? Why are the words DISCIPLINE and RESPECT come out of our lips when we do not even know the real meaning of these words? Are we going to continue being an ignorant of this waving truth? Are we going to leave things behind and won’t do right things or won’t do things right? Are we going to continue our misbehavior and prefer to act like little children who only know how to play? Are we going to stay the same and will not change in order to grow? What for that we have minds? What for that we have feelings? What for that we have wisdom? Principles in life? What for that we are being educated? What for that we have senses? What for that we exist? What for that we live?

                I may not have the right to judge you, but at least accept my impressions as my judgments. What I have seen belongs to my inferences enough to say what you are. What I have observed is enough to tell you who you are. You can’t question my part, for it’s you who gave me all these. If you do not want to be judged, act like an educated person. Show me that you are worthy to gain respect and be respected. If you do so, what I have seen and have observed might change. We grow continuously along many changes. And every day is worth changing for. Every day is a chance. Every day is an opportunity. Every day has options. Grab, and choose what is best, not only what is good for you but also what is good for others. We are would-be teachers. We are bound to teach minds, touch hearts, and transform lives.

                To all who may have given their time reading this composition, I hope there is something in you I have changed. And if not, I pray that you will have the courage to identify the truth behind the situation. I also pray that I have made an achievement of smoothing up your minds and hearts of stone. Some may pay attention to I’m saying, others may ignore it. Some may live the words written, others may make fun of it. Words can strike like lightning and can cut like blade, so please accept judgments and comments constructively. I know how well you all are as a person who knows how to think, love, care, and understand.